I just had t share with you.

Hi

Firstly, thank you for letting me know. I've been out of my mind with worry and didn't want to pester you, as you needed to be ok with sharing.

I don't know how much is involved and all the other details but I will say this, it is money. An obscene amount that I've probably never seen in my lifetime but it is just money. You have your life, and your freedom. Pay the fine, put this behind you and start again. You know you can, and that you will. This is a temporary setback. Yes you wanted to retire at 40. You can still do that. Or it can be 45. The important thing is that you have a chance to use this as a learning curve. You get to be with your kids and see them grow. Be thankful for that. You've faced many adversities before this and you have come out a better, stronger person. Don't forget that.

I don't know the why's for this to happen at this point in your life but think of when it had happened 5 years from now? I'm not saying this is nothing but like you're saying, it has humbled you and made you wiser. Then you change how you do things. Listen to your ancestors more? Put things right with them and they will never forsake you.

I don't have millions, hardly thousands so I can't offer you any getaways.

If you feel like talking I will be online when I finish cooking, but I will respect your need for space and solitude should you so choose.

Take a moment and list your blessings and be truly appreciative for them.

I wish you light.